Just a girl trying to find a place in this world.

Well, where do we start.

1. I was late to work and I cried in front of my manager

2. I’m broke as a joke and can’t act like a teen because of it

3. My family keeps asking what wrong and I don’t want to tell them

4. I just want to be happy

5. I’m afraid to be me

I just need some time to myself. I can’t wait until July when I get to go help others. I really need a break, a vacation, something. I need to be a teenager. I’m tired of trying to please others. Its not fun and its not me. I want to help others, not please them…that’s not my job. 6 more days of acting like I’m happy. Once summer gets here, I am going to run and run and run until I feel that I have run enough. I think this will help get my mind off of stuff. And its free. Its funny how my parents think that since we are broke, it is ok to get a dog, a motorcycle, remodel the house, etc. Its freaking hilarious…NOT! I’m getting tired of it. My sister gets to go to Kings Island (like $80), Cedar Point ($265), and gets a dog ($850). I ask to go to Sonic and I can’t because we don’t have money…I WONDER WHY?! Its really frustrating. *End rant*

I hate having to hide my feelings like this, but its for MY good, YOUR good, and everyone else’s. If only I could tell you I love you. This sucks. Especially since you could be moving…maybe that’s God’s way of telling me to MOVE on. I guess we’ll have to wait and see…?

Why is it that people have to put others down to make themselves feel better? I think that it is okay to be mad sometimes and have bad days but PLEASE, for the love of all that is holy, keep to yourself. I don’t need anybody else telling me that I am a piece of crap.I’ve had enough and it’s time to stop. I will try to be nice until you piss me off…then its ON! People like that make me have terrible thoughts and make me cry myself to sleep…and I’m not just saying that. I really cannot wait for August to get here. I will be in college, getting ready for my best friend’s wedding, and away from a few certain people! Good Night!

Country music is about:

• God
• love
• family
• memories
• life

I can’t get enough of country music. If I can’t find a country song to describe how I’m feeling, either something is wrong with me or I really don’t know how I feel. If it  weren’t for country music, I would not know how men should treat women, I would not know what love is supposed to be like, and I would not appreciate my family and all the little things. I’ve never been a good singer but when I feel a song, I belt it out. “I don’t care if you don’t like my twang.” Best lyrics I’ve heard in a long time. Seriously, if you don’t like country music, get away from me because country music takes over my life. I LOVE Scotty McCreery’s lyrics, Tim McGraw’s, Taylor Swift’s, Toby Keith’s,and Luke Bryan’s…just to name a few. Also, if you don’t think that “rain is a good thing,” you can go somewhere. Rain is always good…to walk in, to grow beautiful flowers, to smell, to get to sleep, and to think. I LOVE COUNTRY MUSIC!!! :)